I was at our small group a few weeks back and the question was asked, “How does your heart feel toward God?” The word that immediately came to mind for me was guarded. As I truly consider my heart, there is a guardedness within me. It’s not anger. It’s not really doubt. It’s not disbelief.… Continue reading

We recently watched a documentary as a family about Liverpool Football Club. Liverpool was Ezra’s favorite team; he followed them and cheered them on with every fiber of his being. Afterward, my husband expressed that somehow, watching the documentary stirred sadness in him. I’m not sure if it was just the reminder of Ezra’s love… Continue reading

I was acutely aware that the calendar rolled from February to March this past Sunday. For me, that change was relatively inconsequential. I have two friends, however, for whom the month of March brings deep sorrow. One friend lost her son and another her husband. Something I did not understand prior to losing my own… Continue reading

Something I love about God’s word is that I can read the same passage during different seasons in life, and because it is living and active and because the Spirit is at work, things I have read previously suddenly have new meaning, trigger new thoughts, and bring new conviction. I was recently reading in the… Continue reading

There are times my mind wanders. Maybe it’s that I’m tired or maybe it’s that the sadness that is often in the shadows steps more fully into the light for a bit. It could be that at times, I grow weary of the battle for joy or it’s simply that I am a mom who… Continue reading

I had a friend who was struggling with faith. Her experience with God had left her feeling disappointed and discouraged. He had not been who she wanted him to be; had not shown up in the ways she had hoped. She was struggling with spiritual disciplines and practices, lacking the desire to even try. She… Continue reading

When Ezra was sick, one of his doctors was a believer. I remember talking with him one day and he shared that it was difficult for him to pray for healing for his patients. He said he could easily pray that God would be near. He could pray that God would sustain. But having faith… Continue reading

I had the opportunity to sit down with Heather at the Thanks for Doing That Podcast to talk about holding grief with hopeful lament. If you’d like to listen, you can find it on your favorite listening platform or click here or here. Continue reading