Faithful Paradox

As I continue to press into writing, grieving and the like, I have set a goal for myself to write once a week. There are some weeks that words flow easily. There have been times I have had a backlog of posts because thoughts flow like water from my mind to the page. There are Continue reading

When we desire to walk well with those who suffer, it is a beautiful reflection of God’s heart in his children. We want to walk well with others as we are invited into sacred spaces of loss and disappointment. Often, however, we can feel paralyzed in knowing how to do it. I have had the Continue reading

We had the sweet gift of time away as a family last week over my boys’ spring break. It was time to slow down, enjoy longer blocks of time together, experience some new landscapes, and escape both the rigors and monotony of life at home. Even my college-aged son was able to join us. I Continue reading

I have written on several occasions about my very personal battle with anxiety. This struggle has possibly served as one of the most discouraging, yet life-shaping battles of my life. The discouragement comes when the darkness won’t lift, despite doing everything I know to do to battle it. The discouragement comes when I can’t sense Continue reading

A thing that, at times, has been difficult for me is learning to reconcile the truths of Scripture that I know are true because it’s God’s Word, yet have not seemed to be true or, at the very least, have not felt true in my experience. I recognize that my feelings and experiences have no Continue reading

My pastor-husband just finished preaching a short, five week series on the book of Ruth. One thing I love about the word of God is that it is indeed active and living (Hebrews 4:12). I have read the book of Ruth many times, even studied it in depth, yet going through it this time was Continue reading

As I continue to walk this unexpected, undesired road of loss, there continue to be things I simply did not understand or expect. I have written previously about things I thought I knew that I simply did not know; or at least I did not understand it to the depth that I do now. Some Continue reading

We have several situations right now as a family that feel deeply challenging. So challenging, in fact, that I am unsure how they will work out. This uncertainty stirs anxiety and fear for me. While I am fighting to trust that God has a plan and his plan is good, I also continue to wrestle Continue reading

I have recently been reading “A Grief Observed” by C.S. Lewis. The book is a memoir of the grief Lewis experienced when his wife died of cancer. The chapters, which he never intended to be published, are excerpts from his raw journal entries written after losing his wife. Lewis ended up publishing them, but he Continue reading

Something I’ve been struggling with again as grief seems to reinvent itself over and over is the question of why God allowed Ezra to suffer as he did? Why were there these pockets of hope to grab on to, only to lose him in the end? Why did his bone marrow transplant go so incredibly Continue reading