Faithful Paradox

faithful [ feyth-fuhl ] – steady in allegiance or affection; loyal — paradox. /ˈpær·əˌdɑks/ –  a statement or situation that may be true but seems impossible or difficult to understand

May we learn to be faithful to Jesus, even as we wrestle with the paradox of faith.

  • The Goads

    We have several situations right now as a family that feel deeply challenging. So challenging, in fact, that I am unsure how they will work out. This uncertainty stirs anxiety and fear for me. While I am fighting to trust that God has a plan and his plan is good, I also continue to wrestle… Continue reading

  • Addressed to Our Betters

    I have recently been reading “A Grief Observed” by C.S. Lewis. The book is a memoir of the grief Lewis experienced when his wife died of cancer. The chapters, which he never intended to be published, are excerpts from his raw journal entries written after losing his wife. Lewis ended up publishing them, but he… Continue reading

  • The Delay of Jesus

    Something I’ve been struggling with again as grief seems to reinvent itself over and over is the question of why God allowed Ezra to suffer as he did? Why were there these pockets of hope to grab on to, only to lose him in the end? Why did his bone marrow transplant go so incredibly… Continue reading

  • Feeling Passed By

    A piece of grieving that I did not anticipate are the moments when jealousy pops its ugly head into the picture. It’s hard. When I hear that someone prayed something I too have prayed and God’s answer was, “yes” to them, yet I received a “no” from God, it’s hard. It does not diminish my… Continue reading

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  • Questions For God

    I have found that a very real and oftentimes difficult piece of faith is what to do when I have questions about God’s plan. Scripture is clear that questioning God is sin and produces bad fruit. It can lead to the derailing of faith if the questions we have about God are not answered by… Continue reading

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  • Missed Miracles

    When I was younger, my parents had a neighbor who faced an unexpected terminal illness. She was a young mom, previously very healthy and suddenly, she was sick and dying. I prayed and prayed for her, pleading with God to heal her. Wouldn’t it bring him the most glory to bring her back to health?… Continue reading

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  • Restoration

    I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the concept of restoration. I think for me, I am realizing that there are a lot of ideas and words that float around Christian sub-culture that sound really amazing, but when I sit down and really chew on what the ideas mean, I realize I can’t actually put… Continue reading

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  • Might As Well Get It Over With

    It’s that season where we start to come out of the holiday slump. People are back at their routines. New Years resolutions have been made. Holiday travel has been completed. We’re through the holidays, but they are close enough in the rearview mirror that everyone still asks about them. “How was your Christmas? Your New… Continue reading

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  • Reconciling Joy

    I awoke with a song in my head this morning that we sang at church yesterday. It was a rendition of “Joy to the World” with a chorus that says, “Joy, unspeakable joy. It rises in my soul, never lets me go.” It feels ironic that as I type those words, as they stream through… Continue reading

  • 10 Things I Thought I Knew

    I thought I knew a lot about grief and grieving. I am an empath; I feel things deeply. We have been in full time ministry for more than two decades and have walked with countless people through pain, suffering, loss, divorce, and sickness. There is little that we have not encountered with others. Before we… Continue reading