Faithful Paradox

faithful [ feyth-fuhl ] – steady in allegiance or affection; loyal — paradox. /ˈpær·əˌdɑks/ –  a statement or situation that may be true but seems impossible or difficult to understand

May we learn to be faithful to Jesus, even as we wrestle with the paradox of faith.

  • Point It Out (Navigating Grief, Part 3)

    When Ezra was first diagnosed, a good friend of ours was asked to do a bit of training for our church on how to best care for us. On the first Sunday after Ezra fell ill, our friend shared some on best and helpful practices when walking with someone going through a season of suffering.… Continue reading

  • Grief Changes You (Navigating Grief – part 2)

    A piece of grief I have often heard but did not understand is that grief changes a person. Early on our journey with Ezra, I read that grief will make you better or it will make you bitter, but it will not leave you unchanged. A piece of walking with those who are walking or… Continue reading

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  • It’s Not About You (Navigating Grief – Part 1)

    Over the next few days, I thought I might write a little about grief and grieving, as that seems to be where I find myself most days. I am well aware that my experiences and desires do not represent the population at large. Grief is a very personal and varied process and each person will… Continue reading

  • Hello, My Name Is Grief

    I have always viewed Grief as an unwanted intruder; a strange visitor. I’ve seen him as the most unwanted houseguest that simply shows up unannounced, uninvited, staying as long as he wants. I’ve seen Grief as an obnoxious screamer, demanding time and attention I’d rather not give. I never know how long he intends to… Continue reading

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  • It Is Good Today

    I find, since losing Ezra, that I have been wrestling a lot with the sovereignty of God. I am not doubting that God is sovereign (meaning that he is in control of all things and that nothing comes to us outside of his hand). My wrestling is not that God is sovereign. But rather, what… Continue reading

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  • The Question of Why

    Last Christmas I sat in the attic bedroom of an Airbnb in Liverpool and wept. We had been gifted the incredible opportunity to complete Ezra’s Make-A-Wish from some friends who heard that once a cancer patient dies, Make-A-Wish cancels the wish. Ezra dreamed of going to a game at Anfield Stadium in Liverpool, England to… Continue reading

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  • Stubborn Joy

    I had coffee recently with a friend who is battling through faith. They have faced some significant loss and are wondering if holding on to God is worth it. They feel like He didn’t show up; or at least not in the way they hoped he would. I imagine most who believe in God have… Continue reading

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  • Hope

    There are days that I have a direction that I want to explore as I write. Words come easily and connect together like a child’s first puzzle; I can see exactly how each piece will fit together with very little effort. And then there are days like today, where I have deep grief, deep anxiety,… Continue reading

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  • The Silent Courage of Grief

    The day after Ezra’s funeral, my (now) oldest son came down early Saturday morning and said “well, today’s the day where everyone else moves on and we are left in our pain.” His words were deeply prophetic. We all hear about how grief is hard and lonely. I think a piece I never understood is… Continue reading

  • Good Gifts

    I often wonder how frequently it is that I have felt disappointed by God, feeling that he did not show up or did not help, when in all reality, it was not that he was absent, but rather, my expectations of how he would or should show up were left unmet? God has promised that… Continue reading