Faithful Paradox

faithful [ feyth-fuhl ] – steady in allegiance or affection; loyal — paradox. /ˈpær·əˌdɑks/ –  a statement or situation that may be true but seems impossible or difficult to understand

May we learn to be faithful to Jesus, even as we wrestle with the paradox of faith.

  • Hello, My Name Is Grief

    I have always viewed Grief as an unwanted intruder; a strange visitor. I’ve seen him as the most unwanted houseguest that simply shows up unannounced, uninvited, staying as long as he wants. I’ve seen Grief as an obnoxious screamer, demanding time and attention I’d rather not give. I never know how long he intends to Continue reading

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  • It Is Good Today

    I find, since losing Ezra, that I have been wrestling a lot with the sovereignty of God. I am not doubting that God is sovereign (meaning that he is in control of all things and that nothing comes to us outside of his hand). My wrestling is not that God is sovereign. But rather, what Continue reading

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  • The Question of Why

    Last Christmas I sat in the attic bedroom of an Airbnb in Liverpool and wept. We had been gifted the incredible opportunity to complete Ezra’s Make-A-Wish from some friends who heard that once a cancer patient dies, Make-A-Wish cancels the wish. Ezra dreamed of going to a game at Anfield Stadium in Liverpool, England to Continue reading

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  • Stubborn Joy

    I had coffee recently with a friend who is battling through faith. They have faced some significant loss and are wondering if holding on to God is worth it. They feel like He didn’t show up; or at least not in the way they hoped he would. I imagine most who believe in God have Continue reading

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  • Hope

    There are days that I have a direction that I want to explore as I write. Words come easily and connect together like a child’s first puzzle; I can see exactly how each piece will fit together with very little effort. And then there are days like today, where I have deep grief, deep anxiety, Continue reading

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  • The Silent Courage of Grief

    The day after Ezra’s funeral, my (now) oldest son came down early Saturday morning and said “well, today’s the day where everyone else moves on and we are left in our pain.” His words were deeply prophetic. We all hear about how grief is hard and lonely. I think a piece I never understood is Continue reading

  • Good Gifts

    I often wonder how frequently it is that I have felt disappointed by God, feeling that he did not show up or did not help, when in all reality, it was not that he was absent, but rather, my expectations of how he would or should show up were left unmet? God has promised that Continue reading

  • Faith Over Feelings (part 3 of 3)

    Welcome to the third and last post of faith over feelings. Today, I hope you are encouraged as you consider these three topics. First, encourage someone who feels things deeply to wrestle. Often, in Christian circles, the idea of wrestling has a negative connotation. It seems to imply doubt or unbelief. For people who feel Continue reading

  • Faith Over Feelings (Part 2 of 3)

    Welcome back! Today I will continue with the next 3 points to consider as we battle to remain faithful, even when our feelings seem more real and accurate than what God’s Word says is true. First we must learn the differences between questioning God and having questions for God A piece of my story is Continue reading

  • Faith Over Feelings (Part 1 of 3)

    I am leading a breakout session at a church conference next week and am talking about the topic of feelings; how do we encourage someone who believes that something must feel true in order to be true? In all honesty, it’s a session that was created to encourage my own heart and spur me on Continue reading