grief
-
Pressing Forward as Pain Settles
We were traveling on and off over the last couple of weeks and when we got home, one of my sons realized his Airpods could not be located. I opened the “Find My” app on my phone to see where we should start looking and as I scrolled through the app, Ezra’s name popped up Continue reading
-
Lessons From Kevin
This past week, we had to put our fuzzy, faithful, canine-companion, Kevin Jeffrey, to sleep. His life of 11 years ended rather suddenly. We knew he had been declining for a bit, but did not realize how near the end was for him. I suppose that is often the reality with death; we know it Continue reading
-
Lessons In the Third Year
As I wrote last week, this past Sunday would have been Ezra’s 21st birthday. I had hoped with it being the third birthday we have endured without him, it would have been a bit easier. In some ways, it was. In other ways, days of significance still have a raw, pain-filled nature to them. I Continue reading
-
Questions For God
I have found that a very real and oftentimes difficult piece of faith is what to do when I have questions about God’s plan. Scripture is clear that questioning God is sin and produces bad fruit. It can lead to the derailing of faith if the questions we have about God are not answered by Continue reading
-
Might As Well Get It Over With
It’s that season where we start to come out of the holiday slump. People are back at their routines. New Years resolutions have been made. Holiday travel has been completed. We’re through the holidays, but they are close enough in the rearview mirror that everyone still asks about them. “How was your Christmas? Your New Continue reading
-
The Blue Gurney
Today is a hard day. It’s a day I awoke feeling grief into my bones from the moment my mind was alert. My eyes have tears at the brink of the dam, ready to spill over at every moment. Two years ago today was the last day I saw Ezra. Two years ago today, he Continue reading
-
Grief Changes You (Navigating Grief – part 2)
A piece of grief I have often heard but did not understand is that grief changes a person. Early on our journey with Ezra, I read that grief will make you better or it will make you bitter, but it will not leave you unchanged. A piece of walking with those who are walking or Continue reading
-
Hello, My Name Is Grief
I have always viewed Grief as an unwanted intruder; a strange visitor. I’ve seen him as the most unwanted houseguest that simply shows up unannounced, uninvited, staying as long as he wants. I’ve seen Grief as an obnoxious screamer, demanding time and attention I’d rather not give. I never know how long he intends to Continue reading
-
Stubborn Joy
I had coffee recently with a friend who is battling through faith. They have faced some significant loss and are wondering if holding on to God is worth it. They feel like He didn’t show up; or at least not in the way they hoped he would. I imagine most who believe in God have Continue reading
-
Hope
There are days that I have a direction that I want to explore as I write. Words come easily and connect together like a child’s first puzzle; I can see exactly how each piece will fit together with very little effort. And then there are days like today, where I have deep grief, deep anxiety, Continue reading
Faithful Paradox 